imagined conversations
afternoon dreams
of a closeness with you
midnight affairs
that never happen

lost among theses fantasies
is my love for you
this ever remaining
emotion that never goes away
only threatens to grow stronger

helpless am I
to stop wondering
to stop my daydreams
from occurring
to stifle these feelings

it’s as if you are here
beside me
I can hear you breathe
see into your eyes
feel your arms around me

futures imagined
lives lived in moments
children made, born, grown
it’s like feeding a stray cat
always returning

I listen to your laughter
to really hear a song
on the radio
the product
of wanting you

imagined mornings
where I pretend
to reach out for your embrace
to lose myself in your eyes
to hear the heart beating within your chest

I can’t shake
all these emotions
and the fantasies
I care not to
which makes it all the harder

will these feelings
leave when you are gone?
will all I dream of
turn into someone new?
or will it always be you?