My heart bleeds with this terror,
this nightmare of loneliness.
To think I almost had it all,
a love and a lover waiting for me,
only me,
to find my way to his side.
Fear has kept me from his side,
fear and the want of something
he could not give me.
Yet in these reasons I still desire
what he could give me.
What is the loss of progeny?
Yet I want it.
I don’t want to lose the chance of having it,
so I continue along this road,
this silent path,
praying,
hoping,
that I will find love again.