381 Finally [23 February 2001]

in the endlessness that is eternity
I can’t think of anything better
than being next to you for all of it
through the rise and fall of empires
right until the sun explodes
and humanity is no more
is it possible that I’ve found you
the soul mate I’ve sought
since the birth of my awareness
I don’t know and all I do
is I stand here
every breath wishing it spoke your name
every heart beat living for you
before I had to work at thinking of someone
I believed that I loved
but you. . .
I can’t not think of you
plus the emptiness felt with others
does not exist as long as you live
I will not speak those binding 3 words
until I stand in front of you
drowned within the oceans
that are your eyes
with others the longer they were not there
the farther they got from my mind
with you distance has no meaning
I’m eager for so much more
I want to be near you
to feel the warmth of your skin
your breath against my neck
can I stay here?
in this place
where I feel I belong at last?
where emotions unknown fill my heart
pulling at it every time I hear your voice
choking me whenever I hear a song
that reminds me of you
like I could forget you
I never could
for the way I feel is so new to me
I bask in the knowledge
that you do exist
that you live and breathe
somewhere upon this earth

 

© Johanna Fugitt 2017

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