in my dreams
you await me there
a man who I know loves me
the way I want to be
who treats me
the way I want to be
who evokes emotions in me
that no one else has before
every night
I close my eyes
you are there
waiting for me
tall, lanky,
beautiful. . .
if only to my eyes alone
your eyes speak to mine
no words needed to tell me
how much you care
you do your best
to make me feel welcome
in any social place
your arms surround me
in complete protectiveness
as if sheltering me
from the world I live in
I’ve lived in
your kiss weakens my knees
your lips stirring desires
promises of later encounters
that weakens me even more
yet you never let me fall down
you hold my up
when the pain gets to be too much
I feel easy around you
like I never have before
around anyone
your faults only make me
want you more
for your imperfections
the evidence you are human
if only you weren’t just a dream
if only you were here beside me
where I could turn to you
during the times
when I need you the most
just to hold me
keep me sane
if only. . .
you weren’t just a dream ~

© Johanna Fugitt 2017