what is it
that keeps me feeling
that keeps me wanting
the intense bond
that love is portrayed as
why can’t I just ignore it
live yet not live
I guess that is why
but I couldn’t just leave
all the pain I feel inside
behind
locked up where
I can’t feel at all
why do I want this
why is it so important
that I feel for someone
why do I crave it
like the air I breathe
the food I eat
to be held in his arms
to be loved so much
that I can’t escape it
not that I really want to
why can’t I feel
nothing at all. . .

© Johanna Fugitt 2017