if only I could feel you
beneath my skin
around me like the moon
is to the night
if only I could. . .
your smile a dream
I have not dreamt of yet
your laughter a song
I have not heard yet
to say I’m lonely
is to make an understatement
to accept I need you
is a concept yet unconquered
yet even now
I know it
I cannot live so alone
with no shoulder to lean on
or no touch to feel
I dream of you
your breath on my skin
your fingers trailing up my arm
in my sleep I hold you in my arms
with it a peace
that descends upon my soul
a peace unknown to me
during the daylight hours
I wish I could stay there
in that dream with you
someone who merely speaks
and I am lost
to the fires of my desire
to hold you near
if only that would happen here
in the bitter sweetness of reality
I know you to search for me
as I do you
that you dream of me
as I do of you
all those delicious fantasies
that are in my subconscious
tease me unmercifully
of what I will receive
as long as I have the patience
and the will to hold on
‘til you are here
in the flesh
making love to me
in the real
your simple touch
lulling me into a world
only dreamed of
I will not question your existence
for I know you are out there
somewhere
waiting for me. . .

© Johanna Fugitt 2017