I cannot find
the strength to say
all that needs to be spoken
I want to voice
all these flourishing emotions inside
that find their origin in you.
something I never expected,
this dream of you and me,
but I’m leaving now
and I may come back. . .
to you?
or to start again
I just don’t know.
I may never know.
I wish I could touch you
to communicate all I’m feeling
and the beauty of man
that I see in you.
it’s funny how in others
a habit I find intolerable
does not matter if it’s you
I continually seek
the warmth I know
is within your arms
I will not start anything
with you now
because it would be unfair
to both of us
so I will say goodbye
a regret in my heart
that replaces another
if I do not go.
what inconsiderate irony~

© Johanna Fugitt 2017