I am alone
on this quiet night
a night that cries out
for passionate lovers
to act out their secret fantasies
I smile at the thought of you
simply desiring you
here beside me
silently taking comfort
within the safety of your arms
it’s strange how every moment
your unknown eyes
come to mind
would that I could gaze into them
at least once before I die
I worry not
in this loneliness
I live constantly in
for as lonely as I am
you are there with me
whether physically or not
though here would be preferable
I keep fighting my hunger
tying it up in its cage
until you are in front of me
then perhaps letting it loose
to see if it runs to you
all of a sudden
distance is no matter
I simply await your arrival
The moment my eyes
Set upon your face
I always believed before
that my love would be prince charming
but a fucking dickhead
suits me just fine
a smile caresses my lips
at that thought
and a laugh bubbles up
to burst out into the silence
that I live in
I’d love to sit with you
over coffee and cheese fries
having a conversation
that lasts all night
how a comment I make
would make you laugh
it’s funny now
how certain things
make me think of you
though you never leave my mind
oh that you were here
you’ve become a true friend
when I thought
I’d never find anyone
can I keep you?

© Johanna Fugitt 2017