I sit here waiting
waiting for something to happen
for something to crash into me
to find myself in your arms
waking next to you
but alas
it has not happened
I find my heart at odds
with itself
on one side
wanting to be free
to feel all it can
on the other
wanting to lock up
that which has been opened
by knowing you
I’m in a state of between
not knowing which way to go
uncertain of where we are going
all those things you said before
about how much you think of me
could it still be true?
or am I delusional?
please tell me
let me know
help me understand where
we are at
because I still love you
regardless
the way I always have and
I believe I always will
don’t leave me in the dark my friend
show me the light. . .

© Johanna Fugitt 2017