sitting here
all by myself
thinking of you
I may not know
what you look like
or how your eyes smile
but I just have
to close my eyes
and you’re here
beside me
I can feel you
like a summer breeze
against my skin
your scent I smell
I can almost see you
standing in front of me
you seem so close
that I could just reach out
to touch you
hold you
with arms around me
I open my eyes
you are gone
I am so tired
of living
day after day
no one to call
when everyone else
is against you
I’m tired of not having
that one thing I crave
more than anything
I wish I could close my eyes
and escape this loneliness
seething inside me
like a thick, black hole
to lay in your dream form’s arms
‘til all I know is you
and all I breathe is you

© Johanna Fugitt 2017