time passes so quickly now
it seems like I take one breath
while a whole month races by me
unaware and uncaring
that time is all I have
until I find him
until I give up the search
would that one day
I could look up to see
his beautiful eyes shining
only for me
or his voice to say my name
with passion deepening the timbre
so it would rumble throughout his chest
feeling its vibrations on my fingertips
would that I could have him
all for me
his skin so I may caress him
his lips so I could kiss him
like I’ve wanted to kiss someone
for so long
at times, this whole scenario
seems so incredibly possible
for I can see it in my mind’s eye
yet at other moments
a despair so deep and hopeless
creeps upon me
rendering me lost to the dark
if only once this man I dream of
who is yet to come
would take me deep into his embrace
hold me just for eternity
until the light dies from my eyes
then maybe I could die happy
for one moment with him
would drown out all the noise
these years of loneliness
have deafened me with
would that it could be so
that I could

© Johanna Fugitt 2017