nights are so hard
to fall asleep to
loneliness is like insomnia
sleep a desire
but forbidden it seems
my heart feels a lurch
every time I see the empty bed
the silence in my home
unbearable at times
the echoes of your voice
wake me from restless dreams
sure you were there with me
but finding no one
only hearing the sound
of my own breathing
at times
the tears fall without end
the pain of being alone
too much to bear
sobs possess my entire body
as every thought
is consumed by that
which I do not have
every night
when I close my eyes
and every morning
when I open them
three words cling to my lips
seeking you
wherever you maybe
“where are you?”
crying for you to come
to be with me
finding me
easing this tortured,
lonely heart of mine

© Johanna Fugitt 2017