And the dreams I have unequivocal
to those of normal times.
I am bound to this cycle
of promise and punishment.
Only what have I done
to deserve this pain?
The desperate hopes showered upon me
then cut from underneath,
taken down to a weakened state
where all the fight has left me
and all that remains is fear.
Who is there to turn to?
No one but the inner being that is me,
self-contained, no escape.
What terror has beholden me to this fate?
Why must I feel such despair?
I must destroy all doubt,
feed the inner dragon that slumbers.
Awake it to drive away all that plagues me,
leaving the path to my lover clear and painless.
One day, I shall find the courage
to undertake the journey past
all doubt, despair and fear.
One day. . .
© Johanna Fugitt 2017