And it is only today
that my secret is revealed.
Hidden even from my searching gaze
was the truth that would save and had saved me.
For it was he who I have sought
since I remember not.
It was his voice I yearned to hear,
his heart I longed to know,
his soul I desired to feel.

There have been many in my past
who I had deemed as him,
but in the end they were false.
It had been only he whom I needed.
All else have been poor imitations
that served only to pain me,
break my heart and bring me down.
Perhaps that is why I find him now,
only when my heart was shredded
could I then recognize his true shape.

© Johanna Fugitt 2017