I am not normal
never have I claimed to be
but I wonder what I would feel like,
normal, as in following the course,
as in finding a suitable mate,
matrimony, children,
white picket fences,
long term mortgages.
Would there be joy?
Companionship?
Somehow I doubt that I
could subscribe to that life.
But I do look back down the road of my life,
wondering.
Would I change the path?
Take the other road instead
if given another choice?
If it meant meeting you sooner,
I just might have.
Yet it is not even sure
that you exist at all.
So I will turn my gaze forward
towards the path I wander upon,
hoping that one day, along the way,
you will be there.

© Johanna Fugitt 2017