Once I was afraid,
fearful of letting someone,
anyone,
into the catacombs of this heart,
the many twisted roads of this mind.
I pleaded with the universe
to show me, to prove that
Love,
Love in all its multifaceted existence,
would be worth it.
That the risk would not outweigh
a reward of such great measure.
Sadly,
in the seventeen years since then
love has not found me in that capacity.
It has remained aloof,
seemingly forever out of reach.
Any my fear has remained,
with the gates to my heard padlocked,
the roads to this mind of mine
blocked.

© Johanna Kaye Fugitt 2017