if only once in my life
could I look into someone’s eyes
knowing with absolute certainty
that what I see
within those depthless pools
is all for me
no one else
that this man
however imperfect
wakes each morn
with me upon his mind
among other things
I fear that my fondest desire
shall never be realized
I will grow old alone
hidden behind fierce walls
that protect the treasure
of my heart within
never to be discovered
by some brave man
who dares to scale the boundaries
of my castle
never to be see free
as all winged creatures need to be
to forever peer into a glorious forest
where love, happiness and intimacy reign
from behind these walls
that imprison my soul

© Johanna Fugitt 2017